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fallinlove.

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me. But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.

one world.
two souls, make's one heart.
although two world's apart; somehow connected.
feeling's grow, emotion's change, fears grow.
getting lost, don't know what to do.
how can this make such a bad turn?
i just want to be happy; no matter how hard i try i can't seem to accomplish that.
i just wanna go into the future; take me to the good parts.
get me past this. having such strong feelins; having them hurt you So bad.
my mind going crazy; save me from losing it all, save me from hitting the ground.
so lost.

i havent

i havent written in this in a while, and it's because my life has just been going so fast.
i never have time to write these days.
but today's different.
it's 6:49 and i'm feeling so low, so broken.
tears drop, but i won't tell. i'll try not to let it show this time.
it's always written all over me, but this time i'll keep my head up.
I guess this is how it truly feels to have a broken heart.
so much has been going on, and if only i would have kept updating the things that have happened.
too much now.
just the fact that he let her get the best of me.
he let her ruin us.
he says" i dont understand"
he deny's everything; but i will not be taken for a joke.
i feel like our whole relationship was a lie.
i'll look back and think wow, i gavw that boy my all.
and all i wnat you to realize is, you let her win, you let a girl who doesnt give two fucks about you break down what WE had.
realize when im long gone, that you h a d me;
realize, i would have NEVER gone through what i went with you, with ANY other guy.
& for what....this outcome? this is not what i planned, this is not what i wanted.
but you seee, you dont always get what you want.
And that is a fact.
i have so much to offer.. and you just didnt get it.
maybe one day you'll see what you let slip out of you life.
"the best you ever had"



Once you feel you have everything you ever wanted,
you feel as if your ontop of the world.
Reality check...you can never be ontop of the world!

Nothings ever perfect.
Love isnt real, happiness is rare.

Learning lessons is a part of life.
You learn from your mistakes&know never to make the
same mistakes twice.

I learned from mine.

People say that theyll forgive but wont forget.
I will NEVER forget.