i havent

i havent written in this in a while, and it's because my life has just been going so fast.
i never have time to write these days.
but today's different.
it's 6:49 and i'm feeling so low, so broken.
tears drop, but i won't tell. i'll try not to let it show this time.
it's always written all over me, but this time i'll keep my head up.
I guess this is how it truly feels to have a broken heart.
so much has been going on, and if only i would have kept updating the things that have happened.
too much now.
just the fact that he let her get the best of me.
he let her ruin us.
he says" i dont understand"
he deny's everything; but i will not be taken for a joke.
i feel like our whole relationship was a lie.
i'll look back and think wow, i gavw that boy my all.
and all i wnat you to realize is, you let her win, you let a girl who doesnt give two fucks about you break down what WE had.
realize when im long gone, that you h a d me;
realize, i would have NEVER gone through what i went with you, with ANY other guy.
& for what....this outcome? this is not what i planned, this is not what i wanted.
but you seee, you dont always get what you want.
And that is a fact.
i have so much to offer.. and you just didnt get it.
maybe one day you'll see what you let slip out of you life.
"the best you ever had"



Once you feel you have everything you ever wanted,
you feel as if your ontop of the world.
Reality check...you can never be ontop of the world!

Nothings ever perfect.
Love isnt real, happiness is rare.

Learning lessons is a part of life.
You learn from your mistakes&know never to make the
same mistakes twice.

I learned from mine.

People say that theyll forgive but wont forget.
I will NEVER forget.