man oh man.

i say it over and over again.

that i should stop that.

:[.

i really need to do what i say i'm going to do.

Not just say it.

This time im serious, at least for a little bit.

Its coming to an end, time to get serious, focus on the important things in life, and get my priorities in check.

Him, we're good.

real good, i think the best we've been.

But theirs still that little insecurity in my head telling me he'll leave me for her.
i wouldn't be surprised if they still talk.

i know i shouldnt be nosy, but they both still have eachother on their tops.

he still has the thing on his page.

wouldnt you think when you get over someone you completely forget about them.

why would you keeep them around if all it did was cause you pain.

i think people like pain, people crave it.

We're so accustomed to the same rutine.

Boy meets girl.

Girl meets boy.

The whole phase were your talking.

Then you expect something BAD to happen.

& if it doesnt, your surprised, and your insecure so you push the person away, because they didnt push you away first.

this "you" happens to be me.

to myself, i'm thbe BIGGEST HYPACRITE.

I say i dont wanna get hurt, this & that.

But then when their ready for me, im not ready for them.

back to the point,

i just know theirs something about her he likes, and theirs something about her ill never be.

My insecurties disgust me.

"Calls became frequent, we hang out on the weekend

Start to feelin` like, she`s the one I`ve been seekin

didn`t take it far, third base, at most.

Never seal the deal, but always came close.

I knew that if I hit it, I would have to stay commited

I was young, 21, man I just wasn`t with it.

Knew what was comin` and you can`t run from it.

Ain`t no feelings that strong between man and a woman.

She said she wanted more than a friendship,

But I wasn`t one in the bed,I said I wanted friends with benefits.

but I was only trying to pretend,I didn`t want you ,Realy want to make you mine.

I would never mislead you,But then, how I treat you.

But girl, you got to give me some time"

Murs is too dope♥;