christmas eve.

It doesn't feel how it usually does during Christmas time. I feel like thats how the rest of my life is going to be.It's the age i guess. Things just aren't as "jolly" & "good" as they once were, not that things are bad.I didn't really ask for anything, so it'll be a surprise, i guess that's pretty cool.

It's kinda crazy that it's going to be 2010.

this year WAS amazing though.

From fucked up nights i dont remember, with friends ill probably soon forget.

Other unforgettable friends, all the crazy nights, the raving, the heartbreaks, the boys, laughter tears, im just happy to be alive. & im ready for what the new year has to offer.

Neeed to think of New Years Resolutions.

You..... i dont know. When i was going to write this blog, i was at first going to say i dont know how much more of MY bullshit YOU'LL take. But towards the end of the day when i sit down and finally gonna write, i realize i dont know how much I can handle of YOURS. =/

I just feel like i deserve MORE attention. Theirs day's you just show me that i'm not all that inportant in your life, the days you neglect me. You make me feel so lonely & vulnerable sometimes. I think thats what gets me to fight with you. Maybe im hoping you just wanna end it with me so i can't blame myself if i just end it for you. Cuz' regardless of the outcome, i will regret it. I just fail at relationships. I just wanna show you so much, theirs the days you make me the happiest girls, and others the saddest.

"got people steady asking how you go to sleep mad one day, the next wake up so happy; well love works like magic and it's so true my mind cant grasp it."

i guess we'll see what happens.

i just know youll always think of HER.

Christmas is tomorrow.

TAO is in 7 days.

10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.

♥ gone.

oldhabitsdiehard.