fuckin played

december 6th, 2009. i feel totally, used, played, misguided, mislead,useless,taken advantage of, hurt, in disbelief.
& the list goes on.
To having put your trust into SOMEONE SOOOO MUCH, and have it SHOVED in your face, is the worst feeling i've ever felt in my life.

i've liked boys, yadda yaddda yaaddda.
but honestly this time was serious, he MEANT something to me.
i felt like it was WAY more than ANY guy ive talked to before.
i wont even get into deatails of what "he" did, cuz i already know, and this day ill never forget, and im really fuckin hurt, cuz i didnt want it to end yet, it was just getting started, but now it will never be the same, and trust me i can NEVER talk to him ever again, it's over done.
& i feel fucking H O P E L E S S .
once again.
i was not fucking made for ANYONE.
i'm so fuckin better by myself.
i dont want your bullshit, fuck love, lust, like, whatever the fuck you wanna call it.
FUCK IT IM DONE